It's been twelve years since I registered here. This account is the oldest proof of my existence in the internet And it means a lot, even though I have been visiting less and less for the past couple of years.
I've just ended a 1,5 month opioid binge, first one after over two years break. I have a job now, one that I like a lot. I couldn't imagine finding something like this two years ago, and now I have it, and it requires physical strength (I'm a cook) and I can't afford...
It doesn't matter anyway. I decided to go with the flow and do whatever I think is right at the moment. It's not perfect -yet-, but at least I feel I'm alive. Also at this very moment with the pain eating through my backbone and legs.
This is it. This is as far as it gets.
I hope I'll submit something in the near future, a piece I've been working on for the past couple of months